Thursday, February 16, 2012

Frustration

The title says it all! I'm frustrated beyond belief. I feel like no matter what I do I'm stuck. I hate the job I'm currently doing and have looking for a new job. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be offered a position at a place that I would love to work for making more money than I am now... the ONLY issue is that with me getting ready to start seeing the RE I have no clue how this is going to work. Should I stay where I work now where I have 2 weeks worth of vacation that I can use to go to appointments or should I take the new position and have to push off seeing the RE until I've been there a little while. I feel as if the stress from where I work now is not helping. So that is where I am currently. Frustrated with a lot of choices to make. Bleh!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

My TTC Journey so far

So far my "journey" has been just that, a journey. DH (dear husband) and I, have had so many ups and downs that I'm surprised our relationship has survived, let alone become stronger and healthier. We started our journey shortly before we got married in August 2008. We found out we were pregnant for the first time October 2008. We were thrilled to say the least. Then 3 months later on December 12 I had some spotting. DH couldn't go so my mother and I went to the doctor and they did an ultrasound. Our little baby boy was wiggling all around. I was sent home and was told to rest. The next day was Saturday and DH and I lounged all day. Sunday we woke up and I was in horrible pain. I called the on-call OB and she told me it was normal and to continue resting. I knew something was off so I waited and called again a few hours later. She again told me not to come in just rest. When 2am December 15th came about I was in agony. DH and I headed for the hospital and called my mother to meet us there. They took me back right away and then sent me for an ultrasound alone. As soon as the tech started I knew something wasn't right. She hurriedly turned the screen so I couldn't see it. They took me back to the room to wait. The doctor walked in and said "I'm so sorry" and that's the last I remember. My baby boy Noah Allen was born still that day. Since that day we have been put through hell with testing and came up with some issues but after 9 angels we are finally going to see an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). I will be documenting my journey here. Today I started the process of the whole pile of paperwork for the RE. Once we have all our records and I have the paperwork complete we will schedule our appointment. This RE is different than most. For our first appointment we have to allow 4-5 hours. We get to sit down and talk with the doctor for the first 1-2 hours. From there we run any testing we need to, talk to the financial adviser, schedule our plan and run with it. Thanks for reading :)